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Name: lucenzo
Location: Manila, Philippines
Birthday: 7/7/1982
Gender: Male
Interests: MUSIC
SARAH MCLACHLAN, Richard Marx, Sheryl Crow, Train, Jewel, Fastball, Mariah Carey, not really into a certain genre, just depends on the mood. but i lean towards artists and songwriters who do well in their craft. if i feel sucky, then i prefer songs that will make me feel suckier.
BOOKS
CHICKEN SOUP FOR THE SOUL series, JOHN GRISHAM, PAMELA MORSI, LAVYRLE SPENCER, MICHAEL CHRICHTON
MOVIES
Serendipity, Chocolat, City of Angels, Center Stage, Miss Congeniality, Jerry Maguire, Stepmom, Up Close and Personal, So Close, Parent Trap, Fight Club, Finding Nemo, Frequency, The Rookie, Spirit:Stallion of Cimmaron, The Incredibles, Gladiator, The Cure, the Priest, Now and Then, Moulin Rouge, Someone LIke You, Somethings Gotta Give, I Know What You Did Last Summer, Simply Irresistible, Spiderman, The Notebook, Message in a Bottle, The Sixth Sense, Signs Armaggedon, Men of Honor, FernGully
Expertise: mmm, i dunno...can't think of any...jack of all trades, master of none...
Occupation: Customer service/support
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
5/24/2005
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| the odds are really againsts me...wahhh...
if i had a terrible realization day yesterday, today's worse. i just found out na bago na schedule nya. gusto ko uli maiyak. the only time na pede kami magkita is after shift which ay mawawala pa. this will only mean that i'll get to see less of him or i'll never ever will see him again...waahh.!!! yoko na!
but looking on the bright side, baka blessing in disguise na rin to, to keep me from falling even harder and hurting more. or baka he's really not the one for me. that i need to realize and appreciate those who are around me who cares...huhuhu...
it hurts pro parang tadhana na talaga ang nagsasabing it's not meant to be.
what i think is not good though, being in this situation is that it makes me want to be with someone, parang rebound o panakip butas...i have this guy who's been around for quite sometime. Although we haveactually not met yet, parang kami na rin na hinde....complicated. we've been trying to meet or he's been trying to meet me, feel ko na d pa ko ready. and i don't want to commit and take someone just because i think it'll make make me forget someone or to ease the pain (parang sinaktan daw ako! ang drama!) basta dapat sure na ko na ok na before i can commit.
the thing is ako ang tanga, i'm at fault why i'm in pain, i'm the one hurting myself...ewan ko ba't ano nakita ko sa gagung yun...hay naku...lam ko pla ano, damn!
siguro what i need to do is just totally get over him. how? that i dunno. *sigh*
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| hay naku... i dunno where to start...
i woke up this morning na ok namn... i was in someone else's bed.
parang routine na nga. umuwi ako, slept another couple hours then woke up to go to work.
the day went on na walang problema, i even greeted people in the office with so much energy and enthusiasm na halos mapunit pisngi ko sa ngiti.
now d ko maintindihan what i'm feeling. ngayong ko kasi talagang napatanto that i'm falling for someone! damn!!!
gusto kong kumanta, gusto kong tumalon, gusto kong maging masaya but di ko magawa. it may seem to be a good thing especially for those who knew well. alam nilang i'm skeptic and that i don't believe in love, or used to not to believe in it. the thing is i'm scared to fall in love, very scared. ayokong maging vulnerable uli, ayokong masaktan uli. i can't can't go through hell again, i dunno if i can come back. to make things worse, he's a good friend. we've only known each other for a few weeks but it feels like we've known each other forever, well on my part it feels like it. waaaaaaaaahHHH!!!!! and he's so much with his boyfriend!
kasalanan to ng down time e! if it weren't for the absence of calls, i wouldn't have acknowledged what i'm feeling...who am i kidding?!!!
nakakainis lng isipin, after all the suitors and interested guys na dumating at umalis, ngayon pa ko nahulog sa taong hinde pwede...
katapos ang mahabang struggle ko to keep myself from falling...wala pang isang linggo nasasaktan nanaman ako...
hay...i dunnop what to do now... i'm tempted not to see him even just text him pero hindi ko ata kakayanin...
the thought of him gives me joy and pain at the same time...
help...
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| it seemed appropriate to introduce my baby in this chapter.
young...
new...
lots to learn about.
wanna know when and where i met my baby?
here...
i mean someone introduced us...
few days ago...
a week or so.
i'm trying hard to make it work this time.
no mistakes...
but i know there will be lots along the way.
like my old babies,
i know i will learn again...
i will laugh...
i will cry...
i will hurt...
i will love...
but this time,
i hope...
i wish...
i pray...
would last.
my baby, oh my baby...
i'm so happy my baby came...
one thing i promise though...
this time it will be different...
this time it will real...
this time it will be me...
meet me baby...
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| i expected answers...
none came...
gave time and waited...
still heard nothin...
i was back at it...
down there...
achin...
hurtin.... | | |
| - Secret Garden i was depressed, i was frustrated...
i was real down...
phone rang...
and it turned my world upside down....
hands are shaking...
stomach filled butterflies...
with vision of what will come...
thrill...fear...anxiety...
answers later...
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